Episode Summary
Today was my last day of counselling. In this episode I share the impact the sessions have had and I explain why I am stopping them.
Episode Show Notes
00:13 – Background to this episode – why I was having counselling.
01:05 – The impact this counselling has had on me:
- It has felt a relatively passive process.
- I couldn’t see the direction we were heading in after 15 weeks.
- It felt very self indulgent – like an expensive coffee with a friend but without the coffee.
- It gave me at least one powerful insight (“instead of either/or, why not both”).
- I had one powerful emotional experience that seem to come out of nowhere.
04:22 – The type of counselling I have had is Psychodynamic Counselling. Its role is to help make conscious anything unconscious that might be affecting behaviour.
05:38 – I asked my counsellor what she had seen in me and two things struck me:
- She said talking to me was like being in a pinball machine – pinging from one topic to another rather rapidly.
- She felt the impact of being able to talk things through with my new girlfriend had a powerful impact on me.
06:34 – I am stopping the sessions for two reasons:
- Firstly, the quality of the conversations I am having with my new girlfriend matches those I have had in these sessions.
- The NHS rang me this morning to tell me I am at the top of the waiting list for therapy. My first appointment is tomorrow.
