Episode Summary
I’ve had quite a bad week. I’ve hit consistent lows to an extent that I’ve not experienced for many months now. The reason for this has its roots in my limited emotional skills coupled with my underlying challenges that appear to stay firmly buried inside my head. In today’s episode I reflect on what I think I need to do to move forward.
Episode Show Notes
00:12 – Introduction – this last week has not been a good one for me. It’s been a confusing mess of situations, unhelpful thinking and unpleasant emotions.
00:40 – In episode 144 (I Have To Take Control Of My Recovery) I asked myself these three questions:
- How do I take control (of my healing)?
- What do I need to do?
- How often do I need to do it?
00:56 – I think there is a fourth question that has arisen because of the events of the last 7 days and it is this:
- What do I need to take control of?
01:29 – When I had my first CBT session a week or so ago my therapist talked me through the interrelation of my thoughts, my feelings, my behaviours and the sensations running through my body.
01:59 – This is probably a skill that needs developing. I have started capturing my thoughts, feelings, behaviours and bodily sensations during times when I have felt low in the last 7 days.
03:00 – This morning when I woke up, I felt good. It was as though the mist had cleared. With that clarity I could see how my thoughts had been responsible for my emotions (and therefore my behaviours) over the last week.
03:53 – Maybe recording what goes on when I experience the low moods is my way out. It will probably allow me to target my efforts more effectively.
