Episode Summary
Yesterday I finally shared my struggles with depression and the close brush I had with the desire to take my own life with someone I have become extremely close to extremely quickly. I’d like to say it was because I did the right thing and took the plunge of my own accord.
However it was because she had the courage to do the right thing and was strong enough to be vulnerable with me about challenges in her life. She inspired me do the same and so I shared everything I have experienced.
36 hours later, I share how I am feeling now about doing that.
Episode Show Notes
00:10 – The Background to the stigma I have around mental illness and sharing it with someone I’ve become involved with.
01:33 – She demonstrated huge courage and strength to share things from her past and that inspired me and encouraged me to do the same.
02:45 – How I am feeling today in light of sharing my challenges yesterday.
- There’s a huge sense of relief.
- It feels like a burden I have been carrying has just got much lighter.
- I realised I created a mental monster by allowing the thoughts about sharing it to build up over time.
- Even though I thought it was a sign of weakness to share before I did it, ironically I actually feel stronger because I have done so.
04:34 – Because of sharing, I feel my relationship with this wonderful woman has just got infinitely deeper.
04:50 – So far there has ben absolutely no downside to me sharing my struggles and experiences with her.
05:24 – Even though I have taken the step to share with someone I am in an intimate relationship with I am not willing to do so with anyone else.
05:49 – The stigma is stronger where the connection with others is weaker.
07:05 – Despite all the fears I had, I realise I had nothing to worry about sharing my struggles with this person at this time under these circumstances. I am very content.
