Episode Summary
In this episode I’ve decided to review where I am at just short of 5 months since I was sat opposite my GP telling them I wanted to end my life. I review my journey so far, reveal how I’m feeling right now and look at what the future might hold for me.
Episode Show Notes
00:11 – Why I think it is good to review how I am feeling right now in light of everything I have done.
00:35 – It’s like asking a friend “How are things going?”
00:54 – What’s been happening in terms of treatment from “official” channels.
01:25 – A summary of the things I have been doing for myself.
01:59 – It feels like my whole life has been battered by a hurricane force storm that has since passed. I liken how I feel now to peering out from under the debris and damage of the storm into the calm of the day to see what needs clearing up.
02:16 – I am starting to see the things I let slip during the “storm” in my personal and professional lives.
02:35 – Why I am doing this podcast – to keep track of my efforts and to perhaps help someone struggling with similar issues.
02:56 – I still think it is a sign of weakness for me to admit I have struggled with this, especially to my friends and family. Here’s why I am going to continue to keep it a “secret”.
04:33 – I still have a huge mountain to climb and feel I am on a plateau at the moment.
04:44 – I notice I am still getting sidetracked a lot whilst I try many different things to “fix” what is going on.
05:10 – I realise I still need to do some of the deeper work to get to the bottom of my challenges.
05:56 – Although I am still vulnerable to hitting lows again, taking ownership of understanding what is going on and identifying what is in my control has really helped.
