Episode Summary
Nothing much to report today other than I am making progress.
Episode Transcript (Edited)
Hi and welcome to today’s update with Hope Help and Happiness.
Now, today I’m not really sure what to tell you. Things are moving forward. I’m still doing my exercises in the morning when I first get up. I’m starting to feel in better shape than I have done for some time.
I did my second set of Wim Hof breathing this morning and I didn’t end up holding my breath as long as I did yesterday. I think it was partly because my mind wandered as I was counting and I lost count. I had my cold shower as well and overall I’m starting to feel that I’m moving in the right direction.
Today I have dived deep into an issue that I’ve had to address in terms of going back over a whole lot of correspondence and sorting things out. This is something that would have been beyond me just a few weeks ago.
And so I feel that there’s progress being made.
I’m still procrastinating a little bit. I’ve got a birthday card I need to buy, which I haven’t sorted out. I’ve got an email I’ve got to send with some relatively trivial information. It’s really a very small thing to sort out, but I just keep putting it off.
But fundamentally I’m in a sound state.
It’s almost like there’s this duality between me when I’m really, really low and I can’t imagine what it’s like to be happy versus when I’m in a really good place and I can’t imagine ever being low.
Now, I might’ve mentioned this before, but I don’t think I’m bipolar. It’s just the distance from where I was to where I am now seems quite huge. And I know there are things that can knock me off course because I’ve been in this place before.
I think this is the first time I’ve started thinking about putting things in place to things to make me more resilient. The counselling has given me some opportunities to share and talk about issues. I am more conscious of my thought processes. I’m starting to look at concrete plans for the future.
Now I’m still basing my short term future efforts on the Choose Yourself book. I’m doing the physical stuff but the mental thing is still drifting a little bit. I haven’t worked on 10 ideas for a couple of days now. I keep getting sidetracked onto other stuff and I think that’s part of the problem.
That’s something I’ve got to deal with.
I feel in a good place. I’m moving forward. I still got a lot of work to do because I know this is a fragile existence. My legs could be swept away from me at any time. And I could find myself back in that situation I was feeling just a few weeks ago. So I’m not taking it for granted.
But I do know that my brain chemistry is a more positive one. Now I’ve just got to use that energy to apply myself to the practicalities are going to make me move forward.
So a short episode today. I’m moving forward and will continue to update you on what’s happening. I think tomorrow’s episode is going to be about whether I have actually come up with 10 ideas today, because that’s the next thing I’ve got to work on.
So until tomorrow.
